3 years ago today, I was diagnosed with severe inattentive ADHD.
While my life has significantly improved since diagnosis and proper management, I know I have a long way to go. Especially when I have two brains that HATE each other. There are times I've wanted to take a vow of permanent silence due to glitching social and situational awareness.
I also grieve the life I never got to have due to not knowing what was happening. I was always "lazy, stupid, reckless, and always distracted." Leading to lots of housing and career instability. I also know in 1980s and 1990s, "management" was simply a bottle of Ritalin.
But I've been coming into my own over three years, learning how to handle situations that used to confuse the hell out of me. And again, as Anthony Bourdain once said:
"Maybe that’s enlightenment enough: to know that there is no final resting place of the mind; no moment of smug clarity. Perhaps wisdom...is realizing how small I am, and unwise, and how far I have yet to go."