To clear the air:
I said during the whole Ferguson debate that there were times I get so riled up by discussions that I don't like what I'm saying anymore and will take time off. I have done that a few times. I do not "Take my ball and go home."
One poster suggested I kill myself. He wasn't kidding. He wasn't joking around. He was serious. It just so happens that at the time he said that I was having a nasty reaction to some new medication for headaches. The last thing I needed was some ******* telling me I should kill myself. That's when I deleted a bunch of threads, left a farewell message in the Extras thread and a note on the printer for my mom. Fortunately the pills I took were not lethal and Parkview Hospital brought me back. As I said many time to many therapists over the next year, it doesn't make sense that I would try that when I had worked so hard to recover from this dammed tumor.
It was the following year that I did in fact get a job online - moderating this forum. I am not sure how much longer I'll be doing that. I am seeing the doctor later today because I still am suffering from these headaches and what only a few people know is that I have now developed a precursor to cancer. The odds that I actually get cancer are slim, but they exist. And I still have this tumor.
Didn't mean to rant, but I figure if people are going to speculate about it, I may as well come out with the truth. I also hope my story serves as a reminder that there are real people out here who suffer from depression, even if we joke around a lot. Guys, make sure you get all those "-oscopies" your doctor advises because you never know when they'l find something.