My uncle passed away this morning around 5:00am. My mom and her sisters were going to go this morning to see him. Now I'm a little mad. We just should have gone there, 3:15pm deadline or not. I can't understand how, if we got there at 3:40, they wouldn't have let my mom and aunt go in to see him for five minutes given they knew he was failing. Cousin P texted me this morning that C texted her that he passed. I told my mom that and she got annoyed that C texted P before calling her. I told my mom to let it go. I get that it's her brother and she and C have had issues about this, but it's over.
There will be no funeral, he's supposed to be cremated. But, I was told they're bringing his body to a funeral home because they can't cremate him for 48 hours. So there's an opportunity to go pay respects at the funeral home. My mom said she and her sisters talked about it and they don't want to go. Which I don't get. I'm waiting to get the details. I'm going to ask my mom again. She said she would have a 40-day memorial service for him at church.
Part of me feels really guilty as I was very wary of having her visit a nursing home given the pandemic. And while I wanted her to get to see him one last time, that same part of me feels a little relieved that she didn't. Am I an awful person?